Thursday, May 28, 2009

So Silent...

Things are changing. My mom is going to have her foot amputated due to her horrible peripheral artery disease. I haven't any idea when, but soon.

I'm 51, and childhood is over. I have a yucky feeling that the rest of Mom's life will be packed in not so long of a time.

One of my brothers is very honest about his feelings. He said he didn't want to hear anything about this upcoming procedure, as these things "don't happen to my mother."

As pragmatic as the rest of my sibs and I are about this, I remain surprised that I cry at the least little thing these days. Go figure.

Mom's last sister and her husband are coming for a visit tomorrow. They don't know about this, so it will be up to me (with Mom's blessing) to let them know. Since their mom had her leg amputated due to diabetes, this is nothing new. Still a very sad thing.

BTW, the CT scan I mentioned in my last post was boringly normal--thanks be to God! Time to concentrate on Mom. We certainly appreciate prayers.

7 comments:

Kirkepiscatoid said...

Don't be surprised about the tears. I think you are going through what I go through sometimes. We are the kind of people who are used to being "rocks." Being labile seems so weird when you are a rock. But rocks last millions of years because parts of them erode under pressure, so the whole thing doesn't crack.

The lability is just self-preserving erosion. Erosion of some delusions. Erosion of some rough edges. It's all as natural as the waves beating against the shore.

You'll weather it, with God's help.

FranIAm said...

Oh Laura - I am so sorry. Sending you so many prayers of love, healing and more.

Diane said...

praying for you Laura.

mibi52 said...

You're in my prayers, dear one. This stinks.

Jan said...

Laura, I am so sorry. 51 is young in my consideration--I'll be 59 in six months. So sorry about your mother.

Ruth Hull Chatlien said...

Sorry I'm late to this. And I'm so sorry to hear about your mother. It's hard to think of our parents going through these things.

Mary Beth said...

love you dear.